信仰见证：珍妮的故事

　　珍妮，一位来自爱尔兰的朝圣者，充满喜乐地述说了她的故事：

　　我是在襁褓中就领洗的教友。虽然我每主日去圣堂，但只是一种惯性的行为。我的先生是印度教徒。然而，我们还是决定让孩子在天主教信仰中成长，每主日必定去圣堂。他们都在天主教学校读书。我以为这是我对孩子们的责任。但我从来没有和他们谈天主，也从来没有和他们一起祈祷。老实说，我的信仰只是表面化，而不是出自内心。甚至有一位教友和我说，耶稣没有实际临在于圣体中。相信圣体真是耶稣的血肉，是滑稽之谈。我的信德就因此开始动摇。在弥撒中，我神游四处，什么都想，除了天主之外。我很无聊地等待弥撒的结束。
    有一天，一位很好的朋友邀请我说：“和我一起去默主歌耶吧！”我有点无可奈何地答应了她。1997年的5月，我们一群6个朋友组成一团到默主歌耶。当时，我只是为了和朋友一起享受阳光、一起聊天……一起过段欢乐的时光。我一点也没想到要去祈祷。
    第一天就如此过了。我很喜欢当地的食物。空气也很新鲜，还有温暖的太阳晒在身上，真舒服……真是一个度假胜地！第三天，我们的爱尔兰导游让我们坐上一辆破烂的卡车，带我们到村外一个地方参加约左（Jozo）神父的弥撒。地点是在Siroki-Brijeg，这里在40年代的二战中，曾有30位方济各会神父们为信仰而殉道。圣堂虽然大，但却满满地都是人。座位及通道都满了。人山人海地挤满了人，真是水泻不通。我留在外面一面聊天，一面晒太阳。就在这时，意想不到的事发生了……

　　一位陌生的男士向我走来，很有礼貌地拉着我的手，带着我走过圣堂中央的过道，一点也没困难，似乎很自然地有人为他开道。他把我安置在祭台前的石阶上，正面对弥撒的主祭前。之后，他就不见了。我在那最好的位置，有点觉得在做梦，但又觉得好像很正常。我一点也不记得弥撒如何开始。但当主祭把祝圣后的圣体举起来时，圣体看起来非常之大，而且主耶稣出现在圣体内。他看着我。从这时刻开始，以及接下来在默主歌耶的日子，我不停地哭泣。我的生命从这时刻完全地改变了。

　　从默主歌耶回来之后，我开始去每日弥撒。在弥撒中，我汲取生命的力量与喜乐。耶稣成了我主要的粮食。我印度教的先生很尊重地聆听我的分享。虽然他看到我的改变，他自己却无动于衷。因为他完全尊重我的自由去实践我的信仰，所以我也没有想要说服他或与他分享我的信仰。我只是常为他祈祷。几年之后，有一天，我正要去参与弥撒前，他平静地对我说：“我和你一起去！”

　　长话短说，他现在也领洗成为天主教教友。我们分享着同样的信仰……

　　啊！我多希望能重新活过，从年轻时就与耶稣一起生活！我后悔浪费了多少岁月！我每天都感谢天主把自己显示给我。我现在为一些冷淡的教友祈祷，他们和从前的我一样。愿圣母妈妈感动许多许多的灵魂，把他们带回到生活的主耶稣前！

英文原文：

Janet's story
 

Janet, an Irish pilgrim full of joy, told her story as the following:
 

"I was a cradle Catholic. I went to Mass every Sunday, but only out of habit. My husband was not a Catholic - in fact he was a Hindu, but we both　decided that we wanted to bring our three children up as Catholics, that is, I always took them to Mass on Sundays and sent them to Catholic schools, etc. I thought that this was all I was obliged to do. I never prayed with them or taught them about God! The reality was that I was practicing my faith superficially, not living it with my heart. In addition to this, a Christian man told me that Jesus is not present in the host, and that to believe in the real presence was ridiculous, so I ended up doubting. During Mass I was thinking of everything but God and was looking forward to the end because I was bored.
 

"I have a very good friend who had often been to Medjugorje. She kept pleading with me, 'Come with me to Medjugorje!' Finally despite great protest in my heart, I said yes. We were a group of six friends. As far as I was concerned, I was going for a girly week in the sun, to enjoy nature, and lots of chatting amongst friends. I didn't think prayer would be on my agenda. It was May 1997."The first days went as planned. I enjoyed the food, fresh air, sunshine and even going to daily Mass. I thought, 'This is good!' On the third day we went off with John, our Irish guide, in an old ratty van to a Mass being celebrated by Fr. Jozo at Siroki-Brijeg, where 30 Franciscan priests were martyred during World War II. It was a huge church that filled up quickly as I remained outside in the sunshine, chatting with friends. Mass was about to begin and the church was packed. All the benches were full and the isles so crowded that it was impossible to move. It was then that the most surprising thing happened!
 

"A man, whom I had never met before, took my hand very gently and walked me through the crowds. I didn't feel as though we were pushing; it was as if the space opened up and we walked gently through. He took me to the altar steps and placed me right in front of the priest who was about to start the Mass. Then he suddenly disappeared. I had the best spot there! I had a most surreal but calm feeling, as though it was all normal."I remember nothing of the Mass until the priest elevated the Host at the　Consecration. The Host became huge to my eyes and Christ our Lord appeared alive in the Host. He was looking up. From that moment on, my whole life changed. I probably never stopped crying for the time I remained in Medjugorje.
 

"When I returned home, I got into the habit of going to daily Mass. I drew all my strength and my joy from there. Jesus became my essential food. My Hindu husband listened respectfully to my testimony, and in spite of the great change which had taken place in me, he did not seem shaken. Moreover,I have never tried to convince him to share my faith, and equally he has allowed me to practice my faith freely. I prayed a lot for him. Several years later, as I was getting ready to go to Mass one day, he simply said to me, 'I am coming with you!'To make a long story short, he is now a baptized Catholic and we are united in the same faith.
 

"I wish so often that I could start my life again,so that I could spend all my younger years with Jesus! How I regret losing time and how ashamed I am that I didn't always believe! But now, I do not let a single day go by without thanking God for revealing Himself to me. I pray daily for lukewarm Catholics! That Mary our Mother may touch many, many souls and bring them to the living Jesus!"

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